Happy Anniversary for my Blog.

Happy Anniversary to My Blog!! It is Two Years old.

Wow! Time really pass by really really FAST!

I didn't even notice it till just now when I saw my visitor counter : Since April 2008. There are lots of ups and downs and this blog was opened and closed several times. Page layout changed, everything changed. Except the visitor count, me and my cats. Haha.


Haha. Kat Kat is really handy somethings to help display my things. Recently bought 2 new books. Oxford Handbook of clinical medicine 8th edition: this is edition is really much improved and worth buying. I love all the new pictures and new layouts. ^^~~~ Sometimes it is even call the bible for some in wards.

The famous " sunflower" paediatrics book~~~ ^^ ~~~


My new bag bag from warehouse. Love it. So nice to carry around.

I haven't start on the "My life in France", however I have finished : "Making rounds with Oscar" by DR David Dosa in 2 days time. You can google for pictures of Oscar online. It is a really cute tabby cat. ^^~~~~ At first i thought it is a book about Oscar the cat and the doctor. But actually it is more like a book about the doctor and his experience with advanced dementia patient and their families. By trying to find out more about the mysterious 'talent' of Oscar, the doctor get to understand more about how the patient and families deal with the diseases. This is written by Dr David Dosa who works in nursing and rehabilitation center, specialize in geriatrics. A very touching book. It helps me to learn more about life, death, how people view diseases and how they struggle through it. At the end of the day the big great names we all try to help label our patients through diagnosis does not matter at all. It is about how one can live on with their own life after having the disease. How long will I live? Can I walk? Can I talk? Will I remember my name ?
etc............It give me a better picture about medicine. What you read in text book is all: disease presentation, clinical features, pathophysiology, treatment, management, investigation. Nothing about what will affect the patient's life and family. What we can do is use our imagination and relate oh...if patient got below knee amputation:.....can he drive? There are still a lot to learn and explore.

What I like best is the last line in this book: by the way, at the end of my days. I prefer the cat over ICU. Apparently Oscar is also very popular online. I have read about him some month ago in some news about this special cat who can tell when someone is going to die soon. There maybe scientific explanation for how the cat can detect death but I prefer to think the cat is a special angel for accompany the family at the end.


The bracelet i got con into buying. It is written 50% off....and I didn't know till I am paying that the price tag on it is AFTER discount. RM50...vomit blood.

I never realize there is a face on the shirt...........till I am home..-_-


GAP GAP GAP..
I am Mad so I shop Gap... my first Gap shopping....and end up.......hahaha..............


Mum gonna ask why I have paint on my pants. She will not think it is a nice piece of art.

Haha

Boring hair curling moment.

New petite macaroon for my hp decoration. Simply love the cute expression.


Loveholic~
Hehehe...Enjoying my new book. I love book stores, they are like heaven to me. A great fountain of energy source. One of these days I am heading down to Kinokuniya again

Hectic life

Life been so hectic and busy that my mind is occupied most of the time. I felt I am busier than when I am studying for exam. There are just too much to do. Felt so stressed out all the time. And some friends when saw me even asked why I never update my blog? I am like.........speechless. Maybe it is true after all, busy ppl with hectic life outside of cyber world never got time to be in cyber world.

Just a little update: My favourite comforter set and my pink alien bunny.

The cute little Meow Meow.

Guess what is underneath this pile of mess??

Sneaky cat who hide under everything. Bad bad. I taught her not to go near my blankets but still she did it when I am looking or when I am not around. Bad cat. But looking at her sleeping so soundly like a little angel, I just don't have the heart to wake her up.


Cute furry little ball.

The Big fat furry ball.
Haha. It looks like it is having too much of a good time. Step step.... hehehehe..........

I am the evil master. It is great fun to wake the cats up from their too comfy and good life afternoon nap. :P Just a little update that cost me around 10mins to compose. Sigh.............seriously I hope everything will be alright soon. I am not sure what it is but I just felt whenever I am too happy something bad is sure going to happen. -_-.............hate it.
Murphy's Law??

"Anything that can go wrong will go wrong".

Nothing and Everything

Who am I to you?
You can not answer me.
From all things it seems, I am Nothing and Everything to you.
I may think too much and I assume too much and all this is just inside my head.
Why do I even bother to care?

You said you can not give me anything.
Why are you hugging me?
You said this is not right.
Why don't you push my hand away?

Who am I to you?
Again....you can not answer.
Why do you care what I think?
It does not matter.
I don't mean anything to you.
So please just stop caring and listening to me!

Or maybe I shoud just disappear..........
This feeling is just a mess.
I do not know what it is and don't want to know.
I just want to run away and forget about it.
But I am so afraid when the time I come back it will repeat it self again and again.

Oh please God stop tormenting me.........
Why it has to be this way?
Why this happened like that ? WHy?

Maybe it is just fate or just karma...I don't care.
I am going to sleep......but I will cut off my cat's whiskers a bit for it is being too happy.

Empty room

Tonight been feeling kind of depressed. I am sitting on the floor typing on my desk top which sits on a small white little table. I kind of like the way my room look like right now. Empty and white. I love the white curtains, white bed sheets and white table. Especially the cute Japanese lantern that's aglow with soft warm yellow light that is behind beautiful cherry blossoms.

Been putting off packing because I don't know where to begin. Actually that's a lie. I am just lazy. I do know where to begin to pack. There is so much of my life to be pack away. In brown cupboard boxes in they go. Secured with sticky tapes and labeled with my name in market pens. Bound for a new destination.

The world just keep on moving and I am wishing it can stop sometimes. I miss my friends, my room, my books, the trees, the weather, that fragrant smell from next door Indian neighbour, everything. Now I even start to miss the street cat I pass by everyday. This experience is just a mixture of great anticipation for the future and nostalgic lingering past memories. Somehow someday upon any moments of our lives we have to say good bye no matter how much we do not want to.

Oh well...maybe I am a born traveler, destined to wonder around the globe. I have my own passport since I was 7 months old. As soon as me and my mum have recovered, one from bringing a new life to this world, one from popping into this world ready to travel. We are on our way to great new adventures. Maybe is because of her, I am never scared when I am in a foreign country and I don't even know where am I or what everyone is talking.

Is time again to travel and though it is sad to leave but well..it is inevitable. So just be brave and embrace the unpredictable. Need to minimize all my belongings...actually in fact what I really need is very little.

Pack the bag, take ur hp, wallet and passport and u are ready to travel. Though sometimes I wish I can bring my cat and dog along too. That will be great fun.

Happy Day! I passed My Exam!

Anyone been wondering where have I been recently? I have been busy studying for my Exam and I am so glad I PASS!! This is a great happy day for me. I thank everyone and all the Gods out there that has helped me through this difficult stressful period of time.

I am really thankful and grateful for every help that come my way. Finally after months of stress I can sleep without nightmares and waking up 2-3 times in between sleeps. Time for packing on a Holiday!

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating We will never become one.

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating
We will never become one.
In a place deeper than gentleness
Touching each other is merely pain.
Please bind the two of us.

We will dream no more,
Joining hands in uncertainty
Walking towards
The cruel dawn.

True words are surely
Somewhere in the true world,
Lurking
In our wordless night.
Surely even now

Meeting each other in order to know loneliness,
We won't know until we exchange a kiss.
Even so, I am trembling with the joy
Of having met you.
Please support my heart.

We will dream no more,
We can't run to a warm place.
We will surely overcome
The cruel dawn.

The abandoned quietness
Will surely find
The true words
In order to lovingly hurt each other.
Someday surely

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating
We will never become one.
O cold starts before dawn,
Please light
The path that's just for us.



Somehow I am just mesmerized by this song. It is so sad and touching that keep haunting my mind and stuck in my heart. I love and hate this "Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating
We will never become one." How true it is. No matter how hard you and someone want to be together there is always this barrier between each other.( Ok. I am told this song is to sort of reflection the same-sex love but still it applies to all forbidden love. Same or opposite sex.) The barrier of cultural norms, family-ties, age differences etc etc etc...........

How do people judge some couple will never be happy just because their age gap is 20-30 years? The most common obstacle is the wealth of someone. When a rich guy wanna marry a poor girl or the other way round. The whole family will be in up roar in wanting to separate them. For all those reasons people give for " Not to marry that person." How sure are they about if this couple marry will not be happy with each other?

Of course I understand all the reasons, pros and cons behind it. But still............ why must it always be like that? People can say similarity, compatibility etc etc... But I think life is more than just that.

Cafe World

Thanks to Chris I am kind of addicted to cooking everyday. Haha. On applications thats all. Guess this is what everyone else does everyday too. But anyway i got to learn a few new things too.

Egg Benedict.

Call me ignorant or what ever I am not that familiar with some western food. When I was looking through the new menu in Cafe World I was bewildered at Egg Benedict??? Google it.

Eggs Benedict is a dish that consists of a half of an English muffin, topped with ham or bacon, poached eggs, and hollandaise sauce.



Today there is another new dish : Loco Moco

What a fanciful name!

Loco Moco is a dish native to Hawaiian cuisine. There are many variations, but the essential loco moco consists of white rice topped with a hamburger patty, a fried egg, and brown gravy. Variations may include bacon, ham, Spam, kalua pork, Portuguese sausage, teriyaki beef, teriyaki chicken, mahi-mahi, shrimp, oysters, and other meats.
Certainly people has so many names for some dishes which is just egg + meat + sauce and a fanciful name. But i guess Chinese got the most fantastic imaginations. Dragon holding pearls etc... Golden Fire Boar etc... Hahaha.. U can never guess what dish is that.