Sunshine and it is raining again...Goodbye my friend.

Last year around Christmas I met someone special. Secretly I call that person my Christmas present. I am glad finally I have some friend who click so well to chat with. Just like reasons for epidemiology, human diseases does not occur in random, I believe our meeting is not by random too. I thought I will have a new good friend. We have had such fun time chatting and it was great. Recently I am going through some problems of my own. I am unable to cope with it. Finally after all the trouble I am able to face it and deal with it. Through the process for people who had not know me long enough will be shock and got scared away ( maybe).

Call me neurotic, emotional, sensitive or ....not so nice is too pampered and annoying.
My dear, poor little cats and brother has suffered a lot of it. Sigh...Usually i am docile, quiet, good temper. But I have been having very bad temper, shouting, throwing tantrum. I am unable to sleep and too stress out maybe even breakdowns. I have been crying every day and accompany with insomnia as my best friends. Now it is cleared and I hope I will be strong to with stand it.

I am sad this friend of mine will be gone. I thought finally I am happy back to myself again but that person has to go away already. It is like wake up on a bright sun shine day you thought everything will be great. Once you step out side it started to pour cats and dogs. In Chinese there is a saying, there is no wonderful party that would last forever. It will have to end someday. I have to learn to let go and say farewell. Wish all the best for that special friend.As I grow up, I realize it is painful but you always have to say goodbye.


In memory of that person I am sharing some very nice songs. I am thankful that person introduce them to me. It is very relaxing and meaningful.

The friend's recent favourite songs. Just wish everything will be well.
That person told me the song " Driving" and " Make is mutual" are the favorites.So here they are hope everyone will love it too. When I am down or sad I like listening to them. It does reminds me of that friend. Good bye my dear friend. Goodbye.

I wish you the best in everything. Here I will honestly say I will miss you.



Maybe it is just my habit. I like to go through the lyrics as I listen to a song. The lyric must match with the music to great the best symphony.
"Make it mutual"
A quiet moment making my footprints on the sand.
A sweet feeling comes surrounding me.
It's delirious.
Now that's a sugar rush.
My heart is beating oh so fast,
And I dun wanna fall too deep but I want to make it last

There's no need to rush.
We can take our time. Let it go the natural way.
We begin as friends?
And who knows what ?
Where this could be taking me

In this nice cool breeze.
Yes I am all at ease.
When I gush.
And this sweet feeling comes to me.
Can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
And I wonder if you're feeling the same way too

You know what I would like?
I'd like to get to know you more.
Make that mutual.
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel.
When you're here, I feel your vibe,
And I hope I don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type,
Who'll rush into things.
And let it slip away. Yeah,
I like your type.
Caught up in this ride.
It's kinda silly but I'll say

In this nice cool breeze,
Yes I am all at ease.
When I gush.
And this sweet feeling comes to me.
Can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
And I wonder if you're feeling the same way too

"Driving"
Oh loverboy To you I belong
But maybe one day you'll wake
and you'll find me gone
But loverboy
If you call me home
I'll come driving
I'll come driving fast as wheels can turn

Oh loverboy I know you too well
and all of my lonely secrets
To you I tell
The highest of highs
The lowest of lows
I'll come driving
I'll come driving fast as wheels can turn
fast as wheels can turn

Stretching away as far as my eyes can see
Deserts and darkness, my hand on the wheel
loverboy, please call me home
A girl can get lonely out here on the road

You see some days I find the old ways
Frighten me too easily
I leave my key and say "I'm too young"
But loverboy
If you call me home
I'll come driving fast as wheels can turn