Of course, some contents may not even be true it is just to make things to look nicer. U know. White lies. Or just an expression. For that split second I felt like shit : So I will most likely said: I am DOOMED. The world is coming to an end. If the next min I received bouquet of roses. Wow. I will be shouting: I am in Heaven! This is the best day of my life. Typically I am born as Aquarius, but my Love sign is under Pisces so I am more soft, feminine, whimsical... etc etc .
Mood is really bad today. Though more alert and refresh but I just have this undying anger, unhappiness in my heart that I can never ripe off. Maybe I have tried to forget all about it but it just keep coming back to me. I have to forget and let go. Nobody knows and understands. Everyone just want to sit at the said and see me fall, see me drown, see me die a horrible death and laugh at my stupidity. They all can't wait to see a good show. On one side they will be showing sympathy so I will tell them more of my sob story. So they can give me a lecture as if they are so superior of me in character and morality. Then they will say it is my fault even if some of them didn't say it is my fault they will be like hahaha!!! I can't wait to see what happens to u soon.
Example: I accidentally step on banana peel on the floor and slip and...u know fell on my backside or face down whatever. People's conclusion is
1: U step on it yourself ur fault what. why pity u?
2. Aiyah... poor thing. Must be very painful. But u look so funny. hahahahha
3. I want to help u get up but I scared I also fall down. Sorry ah....
4. Oh yes I understand totally. Yes I feel so sorry for u. But there is nothing I can do. I no money/ knowledge / etc etc to help u ease your pain and suffering.
5. That's so funny. Fall down again and show me.
6. yes yes yes... U poor thing. Pat pat yr head. help u stand up. Then immediately ring up, sms, email, even send ppl my pic of how I fall down. Or write in their diary about it or tell the whole family and have a good laugh over it.
Above are the response when u told your ' friends' your story, your problem, your worries. Do u think U still want to tell people ur worries? Oh ya. The above 'people' consist of a handful of not so close friends and especially male and kind of senior in age. I thought since they are older, wiser and I mean being a male u should be more mature and understanding. But think my logic is wrong. The girls and close friends are better than not so close,wiser, older , repected males. No wonder nobody ever goes to those school consultation rooms when they have troubles. So after these experience i decided. The 30-50 year olds can never understand those in the 10s-20s. They may have experienced but they will not understand and feel it ever again. Advice maybe out dated too. Sometimes I feel they just try to pretend to understand so as they can still think they are young. Yucks.
So moody moody mood. Wanted to cook some hot soup but end up my cooking teacher is sleeping. I am too darn hungry ,take up the hp and deal 1300xxxxx to Domino's.
Fany: Hello!! I want 2 LARGE PIZZAs NOW!!!
Then 25mins later....here it is my dinner. Delicious olives, capsicum , beef , cheese.
Dinner on display. Kenny said If he is here I would have eaten him when I am hungry. Hahaha. Maybe not literally eat him up but I would bite him till he feed me some food. Ooooh I sound like some carnivorous. Well. I am. But my mood do go very very bad when I am hungry.Tip1: To have a mellow me, feed me.
Out of boredoom or the sheer joy of showing off to boost my vainty. I am going to post up some of my items and collections. Talking about vainty, I am vain. But NOT that much in excess. My friends all call me the princess and love me for being vain. Love you all my girls friends!! Muacks!First of all, let me show u this: My pink SYL baby doll perfume. The first perfume I ever bought myself in the airport while travelling. Love the fresh smell. It is a limited edition of lighter version. Love it. I only wear it when I am out on a date or to boost my mood.
Glass kitty paper weight. As my love of cats, pinks and Hello Kitty is well-known to my dear friends. This is given to me by Ling2. It is really cute with a sweet teddy bear card too. Sigh...feel like going shopping.
This multy-colour kitty cat key chain from beloved Chris. I simply love it. So ...I will be keeping it till I got a new house key, new bag? Let's wait and see.
My miniature brain model that tried its best to exactly like the real medical museum model. :PI am studying neuroanatomy now. Help me brain: Boost my intelligence and memory.
Ok. Got to study .
1 comment:
Hey! That cat keychain / bag charm looks familiar! Hehehe...glad u like it, babe.
Oh the next time u feel bad mood and sad that nobody seems to be around listening to u, think of me and ur other close friends, or ur family. Think of how much we care for u, what we would say to u if we were there with u, even if we're not. It'll make u feel better.
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